I'am Crucified with My Father

As I'am sitting here this day thinking deeply abut this precious week of our "Suffereing Servant" Jesus Christ" in what has taken place in His own life literally this whole events that led up to that horrible "Crucifixion" of my beloved Savior, My first husband,my lover, my everything that literally means so much to Me personally in all things in this life of which I live daily. In all Honestly, openly knowing just this part of His most power image that's been portrayed unto us just what God had put into words by those prophets long ago as they have portrayed in vivid heavy words unto this vast world but yet denies him as he has said in the scriptures.Death by the "crucifixion" death has said unto us in that book of Isaiah 53 has been shared before us that never changes and it's truths that we can truly have ones own wrenched by those touching words that's been spoken that is so penetrating to one's own soulof His own penalty of which He just didn't commit just thinkin about it makes me cry for the most part and not ever fogetting it in knowing what he's done for my in such a way that had given me unto Him within everything that's within me and not leaving anything that would keep me trapped up inside of my own life as a person whom totally believes in Jesus Christ in what He went through for me and such numbers of other people that I can't count it. As each day throughout my years passing by I know that Jesus whom has shown me the way to follow him but not in the context of this has shown you but in our own spirits unto him as He himself cleanses us as our days goes by living in this world as human being unto him.As I have so many times since I become a Servant of Him I have little by litle allowed him to take more away that had Issues, hurts, habits, hang-ups that held me down unto the pits of hell that needed to be totally released and being totally free only because of what that cross had done for my own life walking in Him.Yes, I had hurt, cried, was hurt by those other vain attempts to finally see just what had lead me at tims with a very hardened heart that broken ,pinned up walls of waters that just gushed-out of me like never ever before like it had done one day in a wonderful church in the year 2001. I had felt like another birth came out in that pain of which the Lord Jesus Christ had deeply deeply touched me and it made a strong impact in my own life and it still does to this day. That had been my own cross that went from being burried and crushed that had been released in Me that beauitful day that's been long lasting for me in His blessed anointing that I could have never dreamed of happening to me . WOW! THANK You Jesus ! I then imagined just what He did for me and having a prayer and fasting by some very very special people whom were doing the same as I that previous week before that services, that coming sunday it became out of me that day. He's so very, precious to Me ever since that had happened to me and I'll never forget it either. That's why Isa.53 does to me everytime I hear the sermon from that day on it makes me cry but yet knowing He came up out of that grave gives me all shouts of glory in that wonderful hope in being with him on the resurrection time comes to finally going home to be with him in glory! Even watching the movie of "The Passion Of Christ does me the very same way seeing it finally done as the word says unto our lives as we read it and knowing it as a person whom lives in this world as it will one day be none as is it now but only the garden of Eden but more glorious that anyway can imagine except in ones spirit as He show ua in a simple glance of where we will be going to one fine day. He shares it in the book of "Revelations" like never before unto us. As I finish with this as I put the Holy Scriptures in this place unto us all !
Isaiah 53
1 Who has believed our report?
And to whom has the arm of the LORD been revealed?
2 For He shall grow up before Him as a tender plant,
And as a root out of dry ground.
He has no form or comeliness;
And when we see Him,
There is no beauty that we should desire Him.
3 He is despised and rejected by men,
A Man of sorrows and acquainted with grief.
And we hid, as it were, our faces from Him;
He was despised, and we did not esteem Him.
4 Surely He has borne our griefs
And carried our sorrows;
Yet we esteemed Him stricken,
Smitten by God, and afflicted.
5 But He was wounded for our transgressions,
He was bruised for our iniquities;
The chastisement for our peace was upon Him,
And by His stripes we are healed.
6 All we like sheep have gone astray;
We have turned, every one, to his own way;
And the LORD has laid on Him the iniquity of us all.
7 He was oppressed and He was afflicted,
Yet He opened not His mouth;
He was led as a lamb to the slaughter,
And as a sheep before its shearers is silent,
So He opened not His mouth.
8 He was taken from prison and from judgment,
And who will declare His generation?
For He was cut off from the land of the living;
For the transgressions of My people He was stricken.
9 And they[a] made His grave with the wickedâ€"
But with the rich at His death,
Because He had done no violence,
Nor was any deceit in His mouth.
10 Yet it pleased the LORD to bruise Him;
He has put Him to grief. He had done this for us all whom will come unto Him AND ALLOW HIS OWN Spirit IN TOUCHING YOU AS NOT ONLY WHAT HE DID FOR ME BUT HE CAN DO IT FOR YOU AS WELL.
When You make His soul an offering for sin,
He shall see His seed, He shall prolong His days,
And the pleasure of the LORD shall prosper in His hand.
11 He shall see the labor of His soul,[b]and be satisfied.
By His knowledge My righteous Servant shall justify many,
For He shall bear their iniquities.
12 Therefore I will divide Him a portion with the great,
And He shall divide the spoil with the strong,
Because He poured out His soul unto death,
And He was numbered with the transgressors,
And He bore the sin of many,
And made intercession for the transgressors.